Sex is the dirtiest of dirty words in India. You say the N-word here and get away, but saying the word "sex" in any language makes a perverted dude, a future rapist and also a wreckless teen. Before my take on sex let me clarify its meaning.
Let's talk about point number 1 of the noun section, we'll refer it as Sex or Sexual Intercourse going forward, while number 2 will be referred as Sexual Orientation. Let's start with Sexual Orientation. Well let me be clear with mine, I'm a straight male, in the spectrum we are male who are sexually attracted to female. So my opinions will majorly be biased on the perspective of an introverted nerdy straight fat male.
<Phase 1 : SEX IS DIRTY> Growing up, I studied in a convent school. We were never taught the birds and the bees officially in school until the Biology lesson came up, to which, we were told we already know the deal. A part of me wishes I could've gotten my sexual knowledge from an actual person rather than pornography followed by actual encyclopaedia (yea, I'm a nerd). This, in turn, in my early teenage created this evil aura surrounded sex. Being an atheist now, it's quite weird to look back how religious I was during 7th or 8th grade. I pledged to myself that I'd never have sex. Any scenes with sex made the movies BAD for me. Then I turned 13.
<Puberty> I don't necessarily remember my early puberty much. Just maybe crushes I guess, and maybe start of gloryfying sex. While I still felt it was "wrong", but it also was cool.
<LATE PUBERTY> As a 16 year old, while most of my friends were falling in love and dating, I was dealing with my insecurities of being fat. Being fat, for me, was my biggest turn off, though I still to this day believe it's definitely a turn off but it's not my biggest turn off. Regardless of that, Biology, documentaries and MORE encyclopaedia made the concept of sex clearer to me. It was probably during this phase of my life, I did casual masturbation. Which leads us to,
<Post nut clarity> BOYS!!!!!!! Well surely I don't really mean the five minutes of clarity after masturbating, instead I am referring to sexual maturity. Due to a lot of reasons, I realised sex is more of an emotional standpoint more than a physical. Everything in movies that is glorified about sex is the love, the physical part of sex, is quite similar to masturbating, isn't it? At least that's what I expect. Do I still have insecurities about my performances, penis size, weight, and other things related to it? Yes, I definitely do. But is having sex, still in my bucket list? Not really, it's more the intimate relationship. Do I still get aroused? Obviously, but in my opinion it's kind of the biological thing.
I hope someday we could openly talk about sex openly, instead of making it a taboo, or a glorified word. Sex, though, is a word synonymous to love, but is nothing more than a biological process which spices things between lovers. Make sure to write down your weird perception of it in the comments.
NOTE : MOST OF THE THINGS I SAID ARE MY PERSONAL PERCEPTION AND NOT ANY FACT. IF I HAD OFFENDED SOMEONE I APOLOGISE.
Thanks for reading my scribbles, this has been Kuroba Hareta and you've read my perception on Sex.
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